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Do you ever think a monkey would
ride on a pig?
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Well, look.
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He's always on backwards,
for some reason. Look.
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Watch him get back on. He loves it.
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He loves that pig.
Look, he's chasing it.
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He's running.
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Backwards.
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He does hold on tight, watch.
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Brilliant.
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Derek, what are you doing?
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Trying to see if I can see its face.
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Good luck.
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Derek... What? Can I have a word?
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- Look, found a snail.
- Found a snail.
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What, on the table?
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No, in the garden.
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A magpie was looking at it,
so I saved it and brought it in.
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Should get another on and race 'em.
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Brilliant idea. Thank you.
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I've got something to tell you.
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What? Look after the snail.
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Yeah.
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'A guy claiming to be Derek's dad
called last night.
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'He wants to get in contact
with Derek.
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'They lost touch when Derek was
a kid, his mum and dad split up.
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'I think his mum made it a bit
difficult for the dad to
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'stay in touch,
so... He sounds genuine.
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'So now I'm going to tell Derek.'
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So shall I arrange a meeting?
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No.
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No? He really wants to see you,
Derek.
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Don't tell me about him any more...
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please. Thank you.
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My dad left me
when I was little... A little baby.
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Little baby Derek.
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I remembers him now.
I think I remembers him.
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I've seen a picture of him.
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Black hair.
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But we never talked about him
cos it upset my mum too much.
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Not cos she hated him
but because she still loved him,
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so we didn't... talk about him.
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And he... He left
cos he wasn't well,
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cos he had to keep getting drunk
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and he thought it'd be better...
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Be better without him.
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He was wrong.
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I wish he would have stayed.
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I could have played with him
when he wasn't drunk.
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You should always stay
with your baby.
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Hi, Gerald.
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Hi. You all right?
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- You all right, Hannah?
- Yes.
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Oh, thanks.
Gerald's Lizzie's husband.
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Hello, sweetheart.
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He visits her every day... you know.
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And how've you been today?
What have you been doing, eh?
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And her Alzheimer's is getting quite
bad now, but he never misses a day.
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It's very sweet.
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And her health is
deteriorating quite fast.
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She worked in shoe shop.
It's not there any more.
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I went in to buy a pair of brogues
and she served me.
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"Need any help?"
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Oh! Oh!
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That was it. Right in the heart.
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Prettiest little thing
I've ever seen.
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I said, "Shoes."
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I couldn't talk.
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Well, next week, when I went in to
buy my third pair...
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I asked her out
and we were married a year later.
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No, she doesn't always know me...
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but I look forward to seeing
her every day.
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She's still the same person.
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And every day I introduce myself
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and we get to know each other
all over again.
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I'm lucky.
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Who else gets to
fall in love 365 times a year?
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Is any sick among you, let him
call for the elders of the church...
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'You see, here's the thing.
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'People see a couple of doddering old
fools caught in a time warp,
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'waiting to die.
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'But I see a beautiful young
girl from Dublin who wants to
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'spend the rest of her life with me.
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'I win.'
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Don't feel sorry for me. Or Lizzie.
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We had the best life
we could ever have had...
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cos we spent it together.
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Lizzie died last night, so...
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Hiya, darling, you all right?
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Mmm. Getting on?
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Yeah. I'm OK.
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We could get all these dry cleaned.
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No, no, no, no, no.
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Lily of the valley.
That was her absolute favourite.
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Must have lilies at the funeral.
Load of lilies.
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Shall I leave you to it, Gerald?
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Yeah, yeah.
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Call me if you need me.
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Oh, thanks. Thanks, Hannah.
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'I've been lucky and sad.'
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So...
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I didn't have a dad, but I've had
lots of mums, sort of things.
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Lots of people have... I've
had my real mum, I loved her,
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and I've had loads of other mums,
sort of.
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I loves them.
And I've lost loads of mums as well.
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That's the sad bit.
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But I'd rather have had them
than not had them ever, like my dad.
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He should never have left me.
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That's why I likes animals so much.
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Animal will always fight to
save its baby, whatever.
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It'll stay with it.
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Even if it hurts itself,
it'll stay with the baby.
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That's what you should do,
look after it cos it's weak...
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until it's strong.
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No point in coming back now
I'm strong.
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When I first met Derek,
he didn't cry.
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I mean, he cried
but he cried in silence.
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He said he'd taught himself to do it
when he was little
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cos he didn't want to
upset his mum after his dad left.
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It's heartbreaking.
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From the moment you're born,
from the moment your head pops out,
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someone gives you a slap,
you know, to make you cry,
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cos that's how they know you're
alive. You cry.
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And then that's it, isn't it,
for the next 70 or 80 years.
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That's what life is - someone giving
you a slapping and a load of crying.
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That's life.
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- Where do you want to be buried?
- I don't want to be buried.
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Why not?
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At all.
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Be cremated.
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Mmm. I likes being buried.
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It's all quiet and everything,
like a mole, underneath the ground.
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No, it's dirty.
Worms and stuff.
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Yeah, not in a coffin.
It's all... Have you seen it?
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It's all nice and quiet. Being
burnt... When you're burnt, right,
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is what goes inside you screaming?
On its way to being an angel?
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Or is it already angel, looking down
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and it's not in pain, all burnt,
and go...
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When you're a ghost...
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When you're a ghost, right,
is that your soul?
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Derek,
where do you get all this from?
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I'm just wondering.
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You're on about looking down on
stuff. When you're dead, you're dead.
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What will it feel like?
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What did it feel like for millions of
years before you were born?
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Didn't feel... like anything.
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I was just silent and...
not thinking anything at all.
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Exactly.
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Mind you, that's how a lot of these
feel most days, innit?
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Do you think you've had a good
life?
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When I look back on my life,
it's been appalling.
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You know, I've got my limbs,
you know,
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no problem there but...
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up there, it's been a war, mate,
since day one.
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No-one would want to be me.
That's what it feels like.
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Yeah, I've had a good life, I think.
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I mean... it's relative, isn't it?
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I've had a better life than a lot
of people but... there are things
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I would have liked that haven't
sort of worked out, I suppose.
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I'm sick of worrying.
I worry about a lot of stuff.
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Money, mostly!
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And this place.
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But there's no... I mean, there's no
point... in... regretting anything,
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cos I can change things
if I need to, can't I?
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It's up to me.
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You've only got to watch these
documentaries on the telly,
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sort of depressing sort of things
you see in India with people
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with no arms and legs
sort of propped up in a hole.
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Know what I mean?
It's dreadful, isn't it?
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But that's why
they put those things on the telly,
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to make people like me
feel good about myself.
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You know what I mean? It works.
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I watch Comic Relief to cheer me up,
and when I say cheer me up,
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I don't mean those shit sketches
you have on there. They're shit.
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I'm talking about stories
of local people who have to
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walk 20 miles for a loaf of
bread. That cheers me up.
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It makes me realise, you know,
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having Tesco Metro on my doorstep,
I haven't got a bad life, have I?
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'That's Derek's dad.'
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He's just turned up.
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I said Derek had a funeral today
and he was asking me
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a lot of questions, so...
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He's persistent.
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You sure you don't want
to see your dad, Derek?
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No. Why do you keep...
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Don't... Don't keep talking
about him.
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OK.
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Stressing me off.
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Do you ever pray for anything?
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I only prays that I die before
Hannah. That's all.
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And anything else that
happens is all right.
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I don't think it makes any
difference anyway,
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cos I've prayed for things
that haven't happened
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and I haven't prayed for things
that have happened,
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so I don't think it matters
whether you believe in God or not.
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Just that's what I thinks, anyway.
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Cos I've met people what don't
believe in God that are nice
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and what are horrible, and I've met
people that do believe in God
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what are nice and what are horrible,
so just be nice.
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That's the easiest thing,
just be nice.
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And that's what... I'm nice.
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Not cos I thinks I'll get into
heaven or anything. I don't know.
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But...
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When I does nice things,
I feels nice.
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And when I does bad things, I feels
bad. That's how I knows.
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I don't know if I pray, you know,
as such.
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I hope.
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If there is a God, he'll know what
I'm thinking anyway, won't he? So...
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And he knows the right thing to do,
I suppose. Or I hope so.
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Muff.
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That's it.
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Pray? No. No, I wouldn't bother.
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No-one listens to me anyway,
do they?
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What's the point in praying?
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No. I just have a moan instead.
That's my way of getting it out.
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That's what it is, isn't it?
It's a posh moan, praying.
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What's the meaning of life?
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Meaning of life?
There isn't a meaning of life.
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If there is, don't worry about it.
You're here now, get on with it.
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You don't get animals going about,
do you, insects,
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worrying about why they're here?
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They're here.
They get on with the job.
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You get a mayfly,
it's only here half a day.
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You know that?
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They're not going around, they don't
waste that half hour going,
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"Oh, why are we here?"
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They do their little job
and then they die.
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Does my head in. And, in fact,
I know why I'm here.
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Yeah, I'll give you a proper
answer to that question.
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I'll tell you why I'm here.
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Cos when I was a little sperm,
I won the race to the egg.
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That's why I'm here,
that's what life's about.
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It's how it works. As a little sperm,
I won the race to the egg.
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You know, that was the last thing
I won as well.
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Imagine that.
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Highlight of my whole existence
was being a blob of spunk.
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I've learned that you've got
to look after people,
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that it's important to
care for people, that...
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you shouldn't be selfish,
you should...
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try and look after the old
and the ill and the...
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the weak, you know?
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And then you'll never be
stuck for something to do,
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because there'll always be
people to look after.
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It never stops.
Yeah, there's no end.
245
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There's only one point to life
and that's the orgasm.
246
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The male orgasm, that is.
247
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I do not understand the point
of the female orgasm at all.
248
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I tell you who's got it
right, Derek.
249
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That's who I'd want to be,
if I could be anyone.
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He's got it right. He's always
happy, he's enthusiastic,
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he's popular, he's funny,
heart of gold.
252
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Yeah, that's who I'd be.
Come back as Derek.
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Wouldn't have much, you know,
going on in his head,
254
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but what he has got going on,
it's all good.
255
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Waiting for the car, isn't it?
256
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Black Mercedes, take us back.
It's coming round.
257
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It can't come in here
cos it's a graveyard, isn't it?
258
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It'd squish the graves or something.
259
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Yeah, it's not ideal.
260
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No.
261
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Won't be long, I don't think.
262
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What would happen
if you buried me in a grave?
263
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What would we see?
What would it be, a skeleton?
264
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Bones, maybe.
265
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I'd like to see them, even though
it would scare me.
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Hello, Derek.
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Hello.
268
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My name's Anthony.
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Hello, Anthony.
270
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That was my dad's name, wasn't it?
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You remember your dad?
272
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Yeah. Black hair. Curly hair.
273
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Must be getting grey now.
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Like yours.
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Derek?
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What?
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Do you want to see your dad again?
278
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I know he'd love to see you.
279
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No.
280
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He wouldn't anyway,
cos he left me when I was a baby.
281
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He did. He did.
282
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But there wasn't a day that went by
when he didn't want to run back
283
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and say sorry.
284
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Why didn't he, then?
285
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He was afraid.
286
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Still is.
287
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But he's here now.
288
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Are you Secret Millionaire?
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No.
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Where's my dad?
291
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Are you going now, then?
292
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Do you want me to go?
293
00:18:43,332 --> 00:18:45,253
You can't stay here.
I stays with Dougie.
294
00:18:45,254 --> 00:18:47,012
He's only got one room.
295
00:18:47,013 --> 00:18:50,573
And you can't stay at Broadhill
cos you got to be registered.
296
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She's in charge. Bye.
297
00:18:52,013 --> 00:18:56,013
Got to go now.
298
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I'm sorry.
299
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I'm really surprised at Derek and...
300
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I'm sorry.
301
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I'm sure it's not forever.
302
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I haven't got forever.
303
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It was lovely to meet you.
304
00:19:19,973 --> 00:19:23,532
Never seen Derek like this before.
305
00:19:23,533 --> 00:19:27,533
He's so forgiving.
306
00:19:27,853 --> 00:19:31,853
He must be very affected by it.
307
00:19:32,373 --> 00:19:36,373
Of course he is, it's his dad.
308
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Do you have any regrets?
309
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Yeah.
310
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That I always try the easy way out,
you know?
311
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Always, well...
312
00:19:57,973 --> 00:20:01,972
I thought it was the easy way out.
313
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Yeah.
314
00:20:03,213 --> 00:20:07,213
Always look for an angle
and I'd look for a shortcut.
315
00:20:08,613 --> 00:20:12,613
I should've tried, yes.
Should've worked hard.
316
00:20:13,413 --> 00:20:16,372
But I gambled..
317
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And I drank...
318
00:20:18,893 --> 00:20:22,893
and I begged and I hoped...
319
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and I cowered.
320
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I'm a failure, I guess.
321
00:20:32,333 --> 00:20:36,333
But I'm not a failure
cos I didn't succeed.
322
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I'm a failure cos I didn't try.
323
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I'm just glad I met Derek,
you know?
324
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Cos...
325
00:20:51,053 --> 00:20:55,053
Not cos he's better than me,
cos everyone's better than me.
326
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But cos he makes me feel better,
cos he's better than everyone.
327
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Derek took the best
shortcut you can.
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The only shortcut that's good.
329
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The only shortcut that works.
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And that's kindness.
331
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I got a dad.
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